2018 --- Wow! I find it extraordinary that I am alive and seeing the first day of 2018. As a younger person, I could not imagine that I would still be here when I was 60 years old! Yet, by the grace of God, here I am and thankful to be so.
I have set my sights on a closer walk with God in this new and exciting year ahead. I have become too complacent in my relationship with Jesus Christ. I have committed myself to know God better and walk more closely with Jesus Christ daily. To love God more and because I do, to love people more.
The opening line of Sarah Young's devotional "Jesus Calling - Enjoying Peace In His Presence" say this: "Come to me with a teachable spirit, eager to be changed". That is my heart's greatest desire as this new year begins. To be teachable, to be changed by the power of God's love, mercy and desire to have me know him better.....those are my ambitions for this year.
I have been on an incredible journey over the past year. My marriage is stronger because of the things we have had to face together in the past year. Although we live apart, our hearts are more closely entwined than ever before. Our problems are real, but so is our resolution to save our marriage in spite of the difficulties we face.
My health became so tenable that I was given 6 months to a year to live, at best. At my last visit with my Hepatologist at the Transplant Institute, I was better than I had been in over a year. God is doing a work in my life and in my heart. He is doing a work in my marriage. There are things I don't understand, but I trust God to do his work and want him to have his way in my life.
I keep hearing the words Michael W. Smith's song "Open the eyes of my heart". That is my desire for 2018. I want to see God in a way in which I have never seen him before. To know him in a way I have never known him before. To be the woman I have never been before. To be the wife I have never been before. To be the neighbor I have never been before. To love like I have never loved before....these are the desires of my heart.
I have missed writing on my blog. Words are important to me, they always have been. I have been told I have a way with words. If I do, it is because God gave me that gift. I want to use that gift again, in a way I have never used it before.
Psalm 86:11 (NIV) --- "Teach me your way, LORD, that I may rely on your faithfulness; give me an undivided heart, that I may fear your name."