|Me and Charlotte @ Wal Mart|
Growing....putting away the pain
and learning to laugh again.
I seem to have expended my strength today before I even rose from the bed. I suppose it's all the antibiotics and other medications I've taken lately. It is always so strange to me how they can make you feel so bad but be so good for you.
As I was on that train of thought, I began to consider how much that parallels with my relationship with Jesus Christ. Sometimes I feel as though my walk with Jesus certainly is painful even when it is good for me.
When my sisters children were small (especially the boys), they went through a period of various aches and pains which the pediatrician diagnosed as simply 'growing pains'. I'd heard of them all my life, but thought they were just an old wives' tale. Apparently not. The kids all seemed to experience these mysterious pains as they were experiencing growth spurts.
Quite frankly, I think I must be in a spiritual growth spurt. I have been on such a tremendous spiritual 'high' that I was totally unprepared when that high crashed. Suddenly, I felt so dry and empty inside.
I have been writing my personal testimony for another blog. It has been painful at times and has taken all my emotional and spiritual strength to push forward. I'm worn out.
However, I know without doubt that it is the right time in my life to share my experiences with others. I am committed to finish this course and complete the task. Just what God has planned and how He will use my testimony, or me, in the future is unknown to me.
I am persuaded that He will use me. I'm just sitting still right now and waiting. Isn't that the worst part? When He sits us down and just says "Wait"? I've decided to make it easier on myself and just not fret. I've been with the Lord long enough to know that I can't do anything to speed up the process anyway, so why waste energy on it?!
Sooooo, yep, I'm waiting and renewing and sharing whatever the Lord places on my heart. I'm not sure where the road will take me, but I know where it ends. I've been traveling for too long to stop now.
Trials have beset me on that road, but the trials were never greater than the supply of my King. They never will be!